Assalamualaikum beautiful people!

I am in such a jolly mood today despite me looking blah covered in these gruesome looking spots caused by chicken pox. Suprised? Well, I really wasn’t, I was taking care of one patients who had rashes all over her body. Her doctor never confirmed what it was. And so after about 15 days, the virus showed itself. But I am feeling way better now, alhamdulillah! Anyway, back to the jolly mood. Why? Ehe, Maria Elena, one of my favorite bloggers, got married! I am so happy for her. I have been a fan of her blog and vblogs for quite some time now and I truly wish the couple well. :’) And another absolutely favorite blogger of mine replied to my tweet! Sweet, right? Aishah Amin, a beautiful mom-to-be, replied not once but twice! She’s super friendly, just like I felt while reading her blog. A precious fan girl moment inspired me to visit my blog again, and make a short update.

I think I wanna do my blog rounds right after. See you! :)

nth cup of tea


Spending my off day nursing severe headache caused by sinusitis by eating spicy noodles and sipping hot green tea. I don’t like and will never like pills. Yeah, a bit ironic for a nurse who constantly reminds her patients to religiously take their meds. Hah. At the moment, I’m having my nth cup of tea. And it’s making me feel better. Alhamdulillah. In shaa Allah tomorrow is sinusitis-free day because I have to work morning shift and I don’t really like to be absent. You may be wondering why I am updating. Well, I am inspired. This post is actually a shoutout to Kai Darul of and Fahreeya of SimplyMuslimah. And uhm, excuse me, while I finish my cup of tea.☆



Barely Breathing

I am on a battle. A constant battle with myself. I feel like everyday is a painful struggle. I struggle with work, with my faith and with all these mixed up unidentified emotion. Work wise, I am not doing so good. I witnessed 6 deaths in a week, and I feel responsible for losing 6 patients. I know I don’t control people’s lives but when I am constantly working so hard to try and do that, at the end of the shift, I blame myself.. Faith wise, I am not doing well. I feel terrible. I missing prayer after prayer. I am unequipped with Islamic knowledge. I lack Muslim friends, and I feel lost. I am in a low point.. May Allah SWT get me where I NEED to be. Because to be honest, I need serious dose of Your guidance. Emotionally, I am damaged. I’m on someone’s hook for almost 7 years now, and I really should let go. But I can’t. I won’t. Help.


It’s pouring outside. @@ I don’t think I’d be able to go to work with the chaos going on. But I REALY CANNOT MISS WORK. :s

Rain, please, if you cannot stop pouring hard, be gentle even for 30 minutes. You seriousy can’t have that much water in your system.


Where do I even begin? Let’s see. Uhm, hi. These past few months were quick. It’s already mid-September 2012, 2 more months left on my contract. By December, I think my cousin, sister and I will be going to Manila, and I guess we’ll be staying there for a while. We’re planning to apply abroad thru every agency possible. And I am getting my iPhone 5 (fingers crossed). :p

Well I meant to talk about something but I can’t find the words to express it. :( 

Maybe next time.

Overflowing Mixed Emotions, EMO backwards

I feel like my hormones are acting up. @@ Lately I have been feeling all sorts of emotions at once. I am a bowl of overflowing mixed emotions; and I honestly think I need a psychologist. Seriously, I have a feeling I sound like a schizophrenic patient. LOL. Maybe this is because of the stress from work and personal life. It’s been 2 weeks of “silent treatment” between me and my Tita. It was on a Saturday, they (my Tita and my cousin) were gonna go out shopping, and I said I’d come with them. I asked them to give me 5 more minutes to get my wallet. When I got out of my room, they were already a couple meters away. :s I just got really mad, rushed back to my room and changed back to my pambahay. When they got back, I was still a bit pissed.. what I can’t understand was why my Tita suddenly gave me the silent treatment. And it has been like that for 2 long weeks. Everyday, I have been trying to talk to her but I can’t get past trying. We’ve always been close, she’s even like a Mom to me.. I just don’t get this behavior. :(


Moving on..

I don’t know what to do. Help?